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Gear Challenges

Over the years my photography has taken on many shapes. There have been twists and turns and unexpected adventures. That is part of what makes my photography so exciting to me, the unexpected. As my photography has changed and evolved over the years my approach to photography changes and my needs change. The very things I need to create my photography may change.

Pico Peak in Vermont

Over the last several years I began running and then my photography followed along and running became a large part of my photography. It started with mostly photographing races that other people were running. But then there was this shift in my mind. I love nature and my running allows me to explore more of nature than I can just hiking. I wanted to be able to photograph the places my running takes me and where it takes others. This often means getting out in nature and of the beaten path.

When you are running and trying to photograph your adventures it can get complicated. There are specific things you need for long distance adventures like food and water and you need to be able to carry that with you out in the forest where you will have no access to it if you don’t bring it with you. And when you are running you can’t really carry a 300mm lens attached to a DSLR while you are trail running. You can’t even really carry a regular size lens like a 18-200mm zoom lens on a DLSR with a battery grip. You can’t really carry something like that in your hands while you run for an extended period of time. What if you fall or just drop it into a stream or off a ledge? And how would you get to your food and water if your hands are full of camera gear?

Mt. Tom Challenge

Trying to find the right combination of running gear and photography gear means compromises. And sometimes compromises that are less than satisfying at times. I first found a small Nikon mirror less SLR that I could fit into my belt pack as I ran. That was annoying as the weight caused it to bounce around at my waist as I ran. However, it did allow me to capture some pretty good images even on my first attempt at this pursuit.

I then upgraded my running gear to a hydration vest for longer adventures and this allowed for a more secure location to put my small camera. I also began using GoPro cameras to create time lapse footage and capture candid moments as well as create some video components. The GoPro cameras were a nice addition but they did not allow for the control that I would have with an SLR style camera and both the GoPro and the mirror less camera I have been using do not have quite as high quality image capacity as I would like either. I also always worry about getting stuck out in the rain with my mirror less camera and having that get ruined as my iPhone was. That is the advantage with the GoPro cameras they are designed for this type of adventuring and can withstand it physically but then there is a compromise with what you can do with them and the image quality of photographs.

Hyner View Trail

I would like to find a system that would allow me to carry one of my DSLR cameras with a smaller wide angle lens attached perhaps in a small backpack format. I really a have not found many options that might work like that. It would need to be a relatively small backpack that can be tightened down to not bounce around while running and it would also need to be able to carry food and water. And on top of all that the camera and food and water would all need to be easily accessible. I don’t want to have to stop incessantly to get different gear out. I need to be able to do this literally on the run. I found one option that might possibly meet some of those needs but not all. So that would create yet another different type of compromise.

Another possibility is investing in adifferent type of camera, yet again. One that meets more of my needs. Thechallenge there is two fold. First is it a good financial strategy to constantlybe trying to upgrade or change gear in order to meet the goals that I have. Theother concern is that if I buy new gear I then have to learn how to use it. Tosomeone who is not a photographer it might sound silly to say I have to learnhow to use this new camera. I mean, it’s just a camera push the shutter andtake picture right? But unfortunately every camera is at very least minimallydifferent to operate even if you are using ones from the same manufacturer. Iuse mostly Nikon cameras and each one of them is from slightly to drasticallydifferent. The biggest difference is in switching from a DSLR o a mirror lesscamera system. So then if I ended up having to buy a camera from a differentmanufacturer to meet my needs that differences could be even more exaggerated.So then on top of learning a new camera there is the challenge of masteringeach camera and remembering it between uses. You don’t use all your gear allthe time. Some items are for special purposes. So if you don’t use it all thetime you have to re-familiarize yourself with the camera so you can rememberhow to use it especially if you need to be able to operate it on the fly. I amnot sure that is practical or even a good idea.

STRC Trail Fest at Grist Iron

I love photographing running events with my DSLR and 70-200 mm f2.8 lens. Ideally I would love to find an option that would allow me to carry that lens and food and water so I could run a course with the runner and photograph them at all different pints as they move through the course. But I just don’t know if that is something that will ever happen.

There are just so many variables that need to be considered and addressed. I am hoping that as I see more and more people out there trying to do things similar to what I am doing that more and more options will become available. 

Does it mean that I have a unique creative vision that I can’t find the gear that allows me to do what I want or am I just crazy for wanting to try to do something that just doesn’t seem possible?

Lucifer’s Crossing

How to find time to do what we love:

My life has taken so many twists and turns that I would never have imagined.

Very little of my life includes anything I would have imagined for myself as I entered adulthood.

I think one reason for that is that I live my life by feeling and emotion and inspiration. I follow the things that I am passionate about and those things naturally evolve over time and take you far afield from where you ever thought you’d go.

In my pursuit of goals and dreams and happiness I have made decisions that have had consequences. These consequences result in holding me back from truly pursuing my dreams with all my energy. This is the reality we all live in. Our actions have consequences and they cannot be seen at the time. We do the best we can. We stumble and we fall but we get back up again.

For many of us who are motivated to chase dreams and goals we are held back by the practical realities of life. Our jobs and our bills prevent us from pursuing our best selves.

If we are lucky we can carve out enough time outside of our jobs to pursue one other passion on a part time basis. But what if there are more than one element of life we are passionate about.

This is where I am at the present moment. I feel like one of my passions, pursuit of knowledge and education was already snuffed out by the pressures of practical reality and not being able to fit it in with my job and other passions.

Now I struggle as I near a decade at a job that I feel only holds me back, preventing me from being my best self.
My passion for photography and for running has grown over the years driving me to do more and more. I increasingly want to expand what I do. I want to offer more and more through my photography. I want to take on more different and challenging events in running. At this point it just feels like there isn’t enough time in the day to work my 9 to 5 job and pursue both of these passions in a way that makes me happy.

I often feel like I need to choose one over the other. Prioritize one over the other. I can either be the type of photographer I want to be or I can be the type of runner I want to be. Practical reality dictates that I need to choose. Am I destined to be unsatisfied in both pursuits if I try to chase both dreams and work a regular job. Is that a life I can be happy with?

Unfortunately the way life works you sometimes don’t learn what truly makes you happy and what you truly want to devote your life to until later in life. Often by that time we have already made a series of choices that has led us down a particular path or more likely locked us into place on a track. I am in the process of accelerating my car along the track to where I can jump the track and escape the life I inadvertently locked myself into.

This is why I need your support. You are the reason I do what I do. I write and I create art for you. I want to share my experiences and my art with you and only through your support will I be able to do so. Only with your support will I be able to create work that is worthy of you. So please support me on Patreon at the following link so I can continue to grow my experiences and so I can jump the track and provide better for you. You can contribute as little as $1 or as much as you like. Any amount is greatly appreciated. You can also earn rewards by contributing at different levels.

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Planning for Skunk Cabbage Half

In three days I will be running the Skunk Cabbage Half for the second time. This wil be the first time I have run a race with a very specific time goal I want to achieve. I have been training hard ever since the last time I ran this race and I am in the best shape of my life. That said I am still nervous. What if I fail?

I have only run four official half marathons, but I have run many half marathon or greater distance fun runs or training runs. I ran a recent training run where my Garmin reported a half marathon PR of 2 hr 2 min. So I know this goal is within my grasp. I think that is part of what makes me nervous about this race. I feel like I should accomplish this. I have this expectation of myself now.

I have worked harder and ran more miles in the last three months than I ever have in my short running life. But the training has not been for a half marathon. The training has been for a trail 50k with 6,000 ft of elevation. Will that kind of training translate into a half marathon PR for me. I guess we will have to see. But I think it will.

I think it helps that my actual official half marathon PR is 2 hours and 15 minutes. So, if nothing else I should at least PR. I rarely run a half marathon distance in that time frame these days unless I am intentionally running at a slower pace. So my A goal is a sub 2 hr half at Skunk Cabbage and my B goal is to at least PR which I believe is a gimme as long as I don’t get hurt. I am probably jinxing myself right at this moment typing those words.

The other issue I have been debating in my head is do I want to bring my camera? I have been documenting and photographing as many races and training runs as I can and have been increasing that as part of my 50k training documentation. If I bring my camera I don’t want to get distracted taking photographs and lose time and cost me my chance to reach my goals. But it would be nice to have my camera in case the race does not go as planned. It will be easier for me to enjoy a race that goes off the rails if I have my camera with me and I can at least take some photos and find other ways to keep myself positive.

So I think the conclusion is bring the camera but commit to only taking it out for pre-race and post race photos unless something goes wrong and I will not hit my goals. Then I can take out the camera and document what is going on. That seems to be a good compromise that will not compromise my goals.

I will likely write a race report after the race. Look forward to reporting back. Wish me luck.

50 K Training: Week 3

Training for a 50k has been a big change to the way I run. I have never done any kind of official training program for any race I have run. If I set my sights on a run that is a little different in the past I just change the way I run to suit the type of race I am striving for. If the race is longer than what I normally run I just try to run a little farther each time I run until I can run that distance. If my goal is to run a familiar distance a little faster I just focus on trying to run each run of that distance a little faster and improve over time. If I am focusing on a a trail run instead of a road race I try to spend more time running trails.

Following a plan that tells me what days to run and how many miles to run is so much more regimented than anything I have ever done in my running or in any aspect of my life really. In a way its good because there it eliminates the decision making. Do I want to run today? How far do I want to run today? What kind of run do I want to have today? Not having to make decisions regarding the running is good. It alleviates a little bit of stress and indecisiveness. I know exactly what I am doing. I just have to look at my calendar.

On the other hand, following a plan feels a bit daunting at times. There is a limited amount of flexibility one can create within the structure if a plan. I sometimes can push a run back a day or run a day early. But other than that I wake up and I know, I am running TODAY. I think that as runners we have all had days where we just don’t feel like running. But when you are trying to follow a training plan to train for a very specific event you can’t decide I just don’t feel like running today and let that feeling win on a very regular basis. If you do you will show up to your race an be unprepared.

On Sunday 1/21/18 I finished up week three of my training plan. It felt like a particularly tough week. I felt tired several days I had to run. I just didn’t feel strong on most of my runs. There were days I just didn’t feel like running. There were days I almost stopped mid run and just called it good enough for no real reason than I didn’t feel like running anymore.

Part of this is I am running more miles on a more regular basis than I ever have before. I am running more days a week than I ever have before. And the biggest factor for me I think is, that due to it being the middle of winter in upstate NY, I have spent more time running on a treadmill than I had ever imagined I would. I am a hater of the treadmill. The monotony kills me. I can’t wait for Spring and more light an nicer weather.

On a positive note, Sunday I was scheduled to run a nice easy five miles the day after my weekly long run. My long run had felt like a struggle even though it was my shortest long run of the plan so far. I was kinda dreading going out for a run for fear that I just wouldn’t feel good. I procrastinated as much as I could. Eventually I laced up the shoes and stepped out the door.

It was relatively warm compared to recent weather trends here. I left my house and started slowly heading down the road. The run started off slow. But the longer I ran the more I wanted to run. The running started working its magic. I started to feel better. I felt better physically and I felt better about being out for a run. My run was supposed to be at an easy pace, but I was feeling good so I just ran what felt right. I didn’t check my watch much to make sure I was running the planed pace. I think just letting go and running the pace that felt right helped me feel better physically an spiritually. It was just the right thing to do for me in the moment.

I finished the run with an average pace that was 30 seconds per mile faster than what I was supposed to run but I also finished the run feeling satisfied. I left the mindset of training behind for one run and just enjoyed the run. I want to be prepared for my race. I want to be conditioned so I can enjoy the race but I also want to enjoy the training as much as I can. I think that this might be the approach I take throughout training from now on. As long as I feel good physically I might just run casually without minding my training plan once in a while for a refresh. It’s like hitting the restart button.

So if you are struggling take a minute and reset. Then get back to work.

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Tanglewood Nature Center

2018 Art Goals

I have written a lot about running and my running goals lately, but I don’t think that I have written much about what I want to accomplish in my art work. Now seems like the perfect time to address that as we getting into the new year. Below is a list of 8 goals I have for the 2018 year.

  1. Have another art exhibit.
  2. Publish an article without photography.
  3. Publish a photography related article.
  4. Take more portrait sessions.
  5. Photograph more shelter animals.
  6. Teach a photography class.
  7. Gain more support through Patreon.
  8. Write a book.

Last year was a good year for me in relation to my goal number 1. I had a joint exhibit with my dad that was very fun and then I began planning for an exhibit for 2018. AS of a few weeks ago it is official that I will have another art exhibit in 2018. The exhibit will be at the Tioga Arts Council in Owego, NY. The exhibit will be called A Runners World and will feature photographs I have taken while out running. You can find out more information about my exhibit here: A Runners World.

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Black-Throated Blue Warbler

I have been fortunate to have some of my work published and I would like to continue that in 2018. One thing I have never done is have an article published that is just my writing and not featuring my photography. That is one thing I would like to accomplish in 2018.

I have thought a lot about teaching photography in some capacity to other people. I love photography and love talking photography with people. I have so many ideas about this and I am still fleshing out exactly how this will take place. I would love to do one on one tutorials as well as group classes. There are so many ways this can go. If this interests you get in touch and we can discuss the options.

The last goal on the list is probably the scariest to state in public. I have thought about writing a book for a long time. There are some people who know this but not many. I have even written parts of a book I have ideas for periodically. I even got so far as to write a book proposal for one idea and work on a book proposal for another idea. Unfortunately, my fear held me up and after working on these projects I lost most of the work I did on the book proposals some how because I was procrastinating. I am trying to let go of my fear and get back to work on the projects and submit some proposals. It is really hard to convince myself to redo the work I had already done. So, thats right I said it. I am writing a book or books.

If you would like to see me write a book let me know. You can help support all of these goals on Patreon: KRNaturalPhoto. I appreciate any level of support you wish to provide, however if you support at higher levels you earn better rewards as a supporter.

I am looking forward to making these goal a reality in 2018. I hope you decide to join me on this journey.

What are some of your 2018 goals?

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Bluets

 

2018 Running Goals

My running goals generally revolve around types of runs I want to try and increasing distance. I think in 2018 there will be more goals involving increasing distances, but I think I also want to set some different types of goals. Some goals I have already talked about in past posts but some of them will be newer.

  1. Run a trail marathon
  2. Run my first ultra
  3. Increase my mileage from 2017 – 2018
  4. Run a sub 24 Minute 5k
  5. Run a sub 2 hour half marathon
  6. Learn more about running
  7. Learn more about proper running training

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STRC New Years Day 5 Miler

My first Trail marathon and ultra are already on the calendar. I will be running Sehgahunda Trail Marathon and Worlds End 50k. I am super excited about these races. These are sure to push my limits and help me explore ho I am as a person and as a runner. I will be running these races with some of my friends which makes it even better. Training for these races began 1/1/18 and it is something totally new for me. I have never followed an official training plan. This should have me more prepared for these races than any other I have run previously.

After my training throughout 2017 I feel like a sub two hour half marathon is within my reach. I ran at least on half marathon distance run almost every month. Now that I am starting 50k training the training plan has me running a half marathon distance long run almost every week. Seems like this should help me even more even though the long runs will not be focused on speed at all. I have a half marathon on the calendar already for 2018 at the 37th annual Skunk Cabbage Classic. The race is a bit hilly, so not necessarily a fast course but hopefully with the trail running and training I will be doing I will be able to get it done here. I am also planning to run this race with some friends so no matter what it will be fun.

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STRC New Years Day 5 Miler

My other time related goal is to run a sub 24 minute 5k. I haven’t run a 5k in years and I seldom push myself to run as hard as I can like one would in a 5k race. This is the one goal on my list I am least confident I can achieve. I am planning to take some time off running long distance post 50k to try and train myself up for a 5k in the summer. If anyone has ideas for a fun 5k to run preferably in the Finger Lakes region of NY or a good training plan to follow let m know in the comments.

My other goals amount to just becoming smarter and more well informed about running. So everyone share with me their favorite running columns to read to learn more about running and become a better runner. I’d love to see what is out their besides articles by Runners World.

Get out there and enjoy a run. Talk to you again soon.

Just Get Started

Yesterday I read a tweet by someone that said he would gladly pay someone to write the beginning and ending lines of whatever project he was working on. I responded that I find the opening line of anything I write to be painful to get out. Just like this post. I could overthink and be paralyzed thinking of the best way to open the post. But instead I decided to just start writing and let it go from there. And now I am off and going and hopefully you will keep reading despite a less than perfect beginning.

In life though I think that is the most important thing. Don’t over analyze. Don’t get paralyzed by the anxiety of just getting started. That is something that has haunted me my entire life, always the fear of the unknown instead of the excitement of starting something new. But I am working to change that.

I just started reading the book Quiet. It’s been sitting on my virtual bookshelf on my Kindle for a long time now. Every time I need to begin a new book I agonize over what to start and never choose this title because I feel like it may be revealing for me. But now I am reading it and it is good. Just get started. Once you get started then you can enjoy the process.

I’ve always struggled making friends. Always afraid to put myself out there. A couple years ago I made it my new years resolution to join a running club. I put myself out there. I didn’t really talk to anyone the first couple of runs I went on but now all my running friends are probably thinking, “We can’t get this guy to shut up.” So just take the leap and put yourself out there. You don’t have to walk the tight rope without a net, but put yourself in the situation where things can happen for you.

This applies to running and getting in shape itself. I had always been the kind of person that thought if I wanted to get into better shape I could whenever I wanted. But that is just an excuse to never start. Once you decide to start you will find how much you really can do, but you have to start first.

I even feel this fear and hesitation in things I have loved to do for a long time. Photography is something I have loved to do for a long time, but starting a new project or even just getting out the door to take some photos gives me pause. But, once I get out there and start clicking the shutter that all dissipates. The joy and passion flows and I am off and running, often shooting hundreds to thousands of photos. I love doing it but it takes a renewed commitment to starting each time to get me going in the right direction instead of procrastinating.

Life is hard. There is no easy way. There is no perfect beginning or time to start. The time to start is now. If you want to do something do it. Start now. Don’t let the perfect be the enemy of the good. Do not let the paralysis by analysis set in. Get going. Do that thing that you have always wanted to do. Once you get going to momentum will build on itself and you will get where you are going. But you cannot get there if you never start.

Stop planning to start and waiting for the right time and just start. Life long dreams and goals don’t come easy. It may seem like there is not enough time to make significant progress on a goal right now and that may be true. You won’t accomplish it right now in the moment, but you can get started. Get started making progress toward a goal. A goal is rarely something that you can just go out and do right now and attain it. It is something that requires steady progress toward the end result. You will never get there if you don’t get going.

Join me in this experiment that we call life and get out there and start that thing you have always wanted to do today. Let m know in the comments what you are starting.